[haiku]

So after a spell of no writing, I've come up with some haikus:

Body is shaking
It comes on so quickly now
I feel nothing else
(this one was actually written when I had a blood sugar crash, but I love that I accidentally made a double entendre)

I can't stop thinking
Everything keeps spinning
My head is a mess

I want you to see
The way my heart glows for you
When you come near me

This weak heart beats strong
When I see your lovely smile
I can't catch my breath

A little twist

She's So High is the song that kind of says everything for me right now, so I twisted the lyrics and put in some of my own to say what I'm really seeing.

He's blood, flesh and bone

He's fine all on his own

He's touch, taste, sight, smell and sound

But somehow I can't believe

That anything should happen

I know where I belong...and nothing's going to happen...

Cause he's so high above me

So far from me...

Like Aten, , Michael, or Adonis

First class, fancy free,

He's kind of high society...

He's got the best of everything

What could a girl like me ever really offer?

He's perfect as he could be

Why should I even bother?

He won't even speak to me

My heart melts for what could be

Because it all seems so unreal

Don't Think

Don't think
Just be
Don't think
Just follow me
Don't think
Let yourself see
Don't think
I'm sure you'll agree
My heart is deeper than the sea
Don't think
Just be

I'm stuck on it

I fucked a faggot

I cut myself when he cheated

God, what a fucking maggot

Remain seated,

This is a story

Of when I needed to be needed

Reminiscing on days of pain

Sitting in the back of the room

Playing with the iodine stain

Those days could have been my doom

Three PM could come faster

My mood starts to decrease

I feel like a plaster

I need release...

Too much eye liner

Too many tears

I should look back on the finer

Points of my teenaged years

But instead

All I remember are the fears

My heart filled with dread

The rejection

The hate

With bad complexion

And having to wait

On something that fit with me

On learning who I could be...

Wow, already a new poem.

For real.


These Eyes
In my eyes
So much shows
There are no lies
What do you see?
Nothing is hidden
Am I everything you wanted me to be?

The Struggle

This is a new one. I was driving a friend home one night and this just kind of poured out of my mouth. Feels good to get back to writing...

The Struggle

Stuttering over my words

Trying to find what really mattered

Struggle

With the times that bring pain

I feel I’ve gone insane

Like a train wreck

My life falls to pieces

My heart ceases

To beat

You have to realize

There was no deceit

Believe me please

 

Wow.

Well. My life is a ridiculous mess right now. My bipolar disorder seems to be getting worse. I can feel my head pulling back and forth with itself and it hurts. So today it was the worst it's been. And this little not-a-haiku-haiku came out:


Voices and voices
Whispering, taunting, screaming
Don't fuck it up now